Thursday, May 29, 2014
Answers from Riley...
In order to film Riley, I had to use my hand-held camera so the quality is not that great. But, you will see him and hear his answers. In the interest of keeping him focused, I had to cut some of the questions down into more manageable segments. The written transcript is below.
Do you realize that you have hurt yourself and the family by excessive drinking?
Yes. More, I think my family and those around me rather than myself.
If you could go back and change things, would you?
When did you know alcohol had become your master?
I don't think it has ever become my master.
Do you consider yourself mentally impaired?
Yes, but not because of the alcohol.
Did Linda’s devotion to you ever motivate you to quit drinking?
Yes, when I was in the service, early on, but not so much later.
Do you think you might ever be capable of quitting drinking completely?
No, not at this point.
Angry Alcoholics –
What kind of person do you think you would have been if you had never tasted alcohol?
What would you have done with your life?
Something dull, probably not spend 25 years on submarines. I would be very much like my father.
What would you be doing now?
I have no idea, but I would probably be dead now.
What were your dreams?
Mine? I think there is no burden greater than a great expectation. I didn't have any dreams for myself as I was expected to.
What advice would you give to a man who feels he is not an alcoholic, but who is drinking three quarters of a bottle of gen a day, starting every morning and sipping throughout the day?
Try to quit.
How would you wake up his family that he’s in trouble?
It is very difficult to wake up the family as quoted by you. I'm not sure that I could. The family and associates have a tendency to tip toe around the elephant in the room.
What makes you feel grounded?
Now -- this house and Linda.
What makes you feel at peace with yourself and your God or creator?
I seldom do.
Do you feel a sense of accomplishment about your time on this earth?
No I don't.
Do you realize that you have a drinking problem?
My joking response to that is: Yes, that I don't get enough. I don't think that I have a problem with it.
Why did you begin to drink?
It was the thing to do.
Why do you want to continue when you realize it is killing you?
Because it was the thing to do.
Trisha E –
Was there something painful that made you turn to alcohol for relief?
No, not initially.
Were you ever able to work thru the circumstance at the heart of the alcoholism in any of your rehab, counseling or AA sessions?
No, not really.
Without alcohol in the picture, what gives your life the most meaning?
Little or nothing right now.
What are your greatest joys?
Waking up every morning.
at 10:43 AM